oh and it’s my birthday in four days.
So i like this guy right? It’s no big deal really, I’ve just been arguing with myself wether or not I really do. Bottom line is: I do. So there we go.
Anyway, he found out in the most unfortunate of circumstances. I happened to be in the same room as him whilst he received his first kiss. Sucks, I know. But life, right?
So anyway, after all that jazz, we started talking again and he feels really bad but now he knows that I like him and he regrets having made out in front of me. I pretty much essentially bared all of my feelings towards him and he’s really sympathetic about it. He hasn’t said he likes me back, though, and I don’t really think he does anyway; even though I really really wish he did.
He brought up the incident again, tonight, one week later after what he likes to call “The Paris Incident” (for no apparent reason other than it’s got nothing to do with anything). I can tell he’s just trying to patch things up between us because we used to be best friends and the girl with whom he made out with was also a very close friend. But it’s just… It’s just useless. I feel like someone made a mistake assigning this whole thing to happen to me or us because none of us really know what to do. We were all drunk at the time and it was really an unfortunate thing because she didn’t know I had feelings for him and she all but exhaled apologies with every breathe.
I keep saying I’m fine and that I forgive them and I really want that. The truth is, I could never be angry at them because they are genuinely the kindest people I know and what they did was unintentional. I can’t forget it, though. Whatever I do, I’ll always remember it. There’s a ball of something caught in my throat and it’s really difficult to type with stupid watery eyes.
I’m scared that he’ll have feelings for her and if and when that happens, I can’t really do anything about it.
I didn’t really make this to ask for advice. I just feel like if I wrote it down somehow it’ll make me feel better.
It made me feel worse. But thanks for listening anyway.
You’ve reached the point of no return when everytime you do/say something, your automatic afterthought is “Now, how can I turn that into a successful text post?”
if you ever ask me to go to the movies there’s a 99.99999% chance i’ll say yes
even if i don’t want to see the movie
even if i’ve never heard of the movie
even if i’ve seen the movie before
no matter what i’ll most likely always say yes because i love the movies
Do you have that one guy friend whom you never thought was attractive and all of a sudden they fucking evolve? Just like fucking Magikarp into Gyrados, they turn into a fucking Adonis and your hormones decide to show up late to the fucking party.
Like, what the fuck is this shit? Do you think this is a game? I should sue you.
→ Anton Yelchin
“The reason I say I feel lucky is because I do what I do. I think when you love something and you get the opportunity to do it, and consistently do it and be able to play different characters or great people, you feel lucky. I’ve been doing it for kind of a long time at this point.”
Come on, Hollywood. You and I both know this’ll go smoothly for you if you just filmed all of my favorite tv shows in my neighborhood.
I DON’T FCKING CARE IF THEY’RE GREEN SCREEN, SUPPOSEDLY SET UP IN NEW YORK, OR IN LONDON!!
I’ve become obsessed with his perfectly executed lunges.
just gonna leave this over here.